About

(DISCLAIMER: This page is super messy and still a work-in-progress. It'll be more organized and make more sense soon. As of 7/26/23, I still haven't updated this because I've been focusing on the site layout, but once I get things looking right I will actually fix up this page)

About the site & why I made it

I've been on the internet since roughly 2003, and I've always wanted a personal website, so I'm finally doing that. Hugely inspired by Pokemon fansites and personal art archives, I never had the skill or courage to make my own version of these until it was too late and social media had taken over the internet.

I've become really passionate about interacting with social media as little as possible, and reclaiming the fun of the internet how it used to be - where people can create their own cozy spaces for the things they love and care about. I hate social media and the general state of the internet these days. The way I had been posting art for years up until "quitting" is so that I basically do not have to interact with Twitter or Tumblr at all - I would post it from my own profile, and then close the tab.

I've been on the internet for a while and have grown in different ways with it, but I'm unhappy with what it's become. Being an artist online is stressful now, as I hate what social media does to my mind but have struggled a lot with finding a balance between "finding an audience" and "keeping my sanity." I'm highly sensitive and introverted, and the massiveness and loudness of the modern internet has really worn me down. I'm just fed up and done with all of it. I want to make my online world smaller and more comfortable. My aim for my personal site is to be like my own room; comfy, full of me and stuff I love, and hopefully a cozy place people can come to in order to relax.

I also want to heavily emphasize that, while I am very much attached to nostalgia and the way the web "used to be," I don't think simply going back is the only solution. I think Neocities and other personal sites are a great medium for expression and comfort, but I also think that, for change to happen, we have to embrace what the "new" internet can be, and simply be kind to one another.

About Reala

I'm mostly known as Lazy but also go by/have gone by Reala/RealaChao (which I'm slowly reclaiming these days), Logic, Odoke, and sometimes Pluto or Yoshi.

For now, my likes and dislikes plus games I love are on my Listography. When I'm done being lazy, I'll list it all here.

(Most of the below was copied from my about page on my Tumblr so it may seem a bit out of place, but I did my best to make it kind of relevant for now).

I use Paint Tool SAI, Clip Studio Paint, and a Huion tablet monitor for digital art, and multimedia sketchbooks & whatever I can find for traditional.
I keep to myself a lot and don't reach out much to people, but I'm always happy to talk if you reach out to me. This is something I'm trying to work on.

I really like Lucida Console and it was my font on AIM for as long as I can remember.

About the content

blue star bullet point Lots of sketches. My ideas move really fast so that's how I tend to work! I put aside and pick up projects very often until they come to completion, and make a lot of sketches along the way.

blue star bullet point I have a lot of OCs and I draw them a lot, and I love to design new characters.

blue star bullet point I don't draw fan art often, but it does pop up sometimes. Mostly video games/anime and lots of Kirby.

Some stuff you should know

pink star bullet point I'm really chronically fatigued, stressed, depressed, what have you, so there are periods of slow art (or no art). This is something I've been struggling with for years, but I do always bounce back, however long it may take.

pink star bullet point I curse a lot in casual conversation, but I only ever do it for emphasis/silly exaggeration. If it bothers you, let me know. I will almost never swear at a person or call them names. I'm highly pacifistic and don't believe in cursing people out.

pink star bullet point I often take at least a day to get back to people nowadays. I am literally just mustering up the courage to respond - social anxiety overwhelms me. I'm also very scatterbrained and often forget that I have things to reply to. I will get back to you, please just be patient with me.